Not My Will

Another rejection email today. Rejection hurts even for the most seasoned writer. However, as a Christian I know that if I trust the Lord with all my heart and lean not unto my own understanding, that when a door closes, God has a reason for closing that door. Surrendering my will to His will is not easy. Jesus struggled in the garden with surrendering His will, but ultimately, He knew like we have to know, that God’s will is good, pleasing and perfect for us. It takes humility to say, not my will, but yours Lord!

A lot of times we say we are confused and don’t know what to do, but sometimes what looks like confusion is actually just the fact that we already know what God wants us to do, but we don’t like the answer He gave us, so we are trying to come up with another option instead of surrendering. We just struggle sometimes to believe that His way is better for us than our way. I can come up with my ideas of how I think things should go, and then put a plan to it and pray about it, knowing I already have my mind made up. This has led me to a lot of heartache.

Today, though I had my way I thought things should go, and it hurt when I got the no, I cried a little, and spoke to some people wiser than me, and then I picked myself up and knew that my Father said no for a reason this time. I know my Father loves me and I can trust His no is what is best and keep moving forward with what I know He has called me to do, even if it looks different than I wanted it to!